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awebster111
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Posted:02/25/2008 12:17 AM |
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Lately I've been struggling with myself worth. I've just recently graduated and I am currently looking for a job. About a 1 1/2 years ago I made a huge mistake. A mistake that could effect the way others percive me. I am not that person anylonger but I still feel like thats all others will see. Sometimes I get so down on myself that I dont feel compelled to do anything. I feel like I am not good enough to get a job. I feel like I dont deserve a chance because of the mistake I made. I just feel .... I dont even know what I feel. Thats the sad thing. I've asked God several times to forgive me but I guess the hard part is forgiving myself. Sometimes I feel like if I could just get past this point in my life then I can move on with the rest of it. I just want to dream again. To feel strong about myself. To be passionate for what God wants of me. But sometimes I feel like I dont deserve for even God to give me a second Chance. And if I dont think God can give me a second chance then how can I expect anyone else to. Please just pray that God continues to work in me and that I am able to find myself worth again. Also Please pray that I find a good Job. A Good job in a good and healthy envoriment. I just want what God has for me! Whatever it is.
Thank you For your Prayers
Audrey W.
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Posted:02/25/2008 9:34 PM |
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Remember that what Christ has done on the cross was for your past present and future sins. That we need to forgive all as Christ has forgiven, that also means to forgive ourselfs on whatever sins we have committed.
As long as we ask from our hearts for forgivness and repent, god is just and he will forgive us. But in order to receive his full forgiveness we need to forgive all including ourselfs.
also we need to leave our past behind us and look for the lords blessing in front of us before we miss out on it. Concentrate on the lord and his blessing in your life and leave your past behind.
I pray that the lord will help you and he will open doors and close old door behind you. IN CHRIST JESUS AMEN
KEEP PRAYING AND HE WILL OVERCOME ALL THINGS IN YOUR LIFE IN CHRIST JESUS AMEN
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kudabear
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Posted:02/27/2008 1:23 PM |
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Hi Audrey,
I know EXACTLY how you feel. I'm going to give you my testimony (and everyone else, I guess) and I truly hope it helps you. So here goes.
When I was a teenager, I gave my life to the Lord. However, through a series of wrong turns, I fell, as many of us do, and when I was in my twenties, I was living a life I'm not proud of. I became pregnant by a married man and I terminated the pregnancy. A few years later, I became pregnant again, yet was in bad financial condition, so again, I terminated the pregnancy, thinking there was no way I could afford a child. I had no idea at that time how badly this was going to affect me for the rest of my life. I can't believe how incredibly STUPID I was.
I started leaning towards the church again about 6 years ago. I searched out many churches and every time I walked out of one, I felt like the scum of the earth. I walked out crying EVERY time. I was almost ready to give up going to church again, but then a friend told me about BRCC and that it was different. I started attending every now and then and found I really liked BRCC and didn't have that awful feeling when I walked out of service. I'll never forget the first service I attended at BRCC. There was a particular reason God led me to this church for this particular service. Pastor Dave was giving the sermon and talking about forgiveness. He started talking about this young, beautiful girl that couldn't understand how God could ever forgive her because she had done the most awful thing; she had had an abortion. After a little more of the sermon, he revealed that that young, beautiful girl was his wife. It was then something came over me and I thought, "if God can forgive her, then maybe He forgives me also." I liked that thought, but I still didn't understand it all. I also didn't know how to forgive myself, but God did.
I never planned on having children, but God had other plans for me. I had been married about 3 years when I became pregnant unexpectedly. I was ecstatic!! My husband was scared, but happy. He kind of looked like this  . My son is 3 years old now and he is the absolute light of my life. He is my everything. I would give my life for him in a heartbeat without even thinking about it. It was when I had my son, that I realized the true depth of God's love for me and HOW he could forgive me. You see, no matter what my son does, says, etc., I will ALWAYS love him, ALWAYS welcome him back with open arms and ALWAYS be there for him. THAT is how God loves me. He loves YOU that much too.
I still struggle with what I did in my past, especially when I look at my son and realize I could have had 3 beautiful children. But I thank God for the one beautiful son He sent me and I KNOW that I am forgiven by my Father. I know I'm not that person anymore and that is the glory of giving your life to God in Jesus' name. Remember, there is no one sin greater than any other and God will forgive you, but you need to forgive yourself as well.
I hope this helps you a little to lift you up.
All glory to Him!!!
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Posted:02/28/2008 10:46 PM |
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I know this is off topic but i was reading Kudabear's testimony and I remember that that is the EXACT same service I firt came to BRCC; it was so eye opening for me, such a relief to know that God could forgive me too.
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Posted:03/02/2008 3:42 PM |
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Hey Audrey
Do not feel alone. We have all made small and BIG mistakes. To God, they are mistakes. God wants us to ask Him for forgiveness for all sin, and when we do, He wipes that slate clean. I was raised a Baptist and was a Ms. Goody-Goody Girl. My last year in high school (about 6 years ago), I rebelled. I was from a small town where everyone knew everybody. Because of that 1 rebellious year, everyone knew me for the mistakes I did. It was really hard for me to forgive myself, but one day, I just got on my knees and worshipped. I worshipped till I cried and bowed my head and asked for forgiveness. I still had a hard time forgiving myself. After watching Passion of the Christ and seeing that Jesus died for my sin, I learned that asking for forgiveness also involves trusting God that you are forgiven. God let me know that if I trusted and believed, that meant that I could look at myself as pure and full of Him. He let me know that my past sin was no longer a part of me. Sometimes I do think about it, but I know that I have God who saved me. Jesus died on the cross for my sin and I will never walk away again. You say that you just want what God has for you and that is an awesome thing. You have taken that step that is so hard to take but feels easy once you have taken it. Choosing Christianity is easy. Being a Christian is a little harder because it is all about choosing to have Faith in God and Believing, and for some reason, humans have a hard time doing that because they want to see in order to believe. Trusting and Believing are actions we must practice daily and never give up. We may fail sometimes, but we have to keep trying. Our God is a Loving God and He loves us UNCONDITIONALLY. God has wiped your slate clean, there is nothing on it. God created You, so there is no way that you are worthless. I am in the same boat you are in about graduating and looking for work. I will pray for you and ask you to pray for me.
Dear Heavenly Father,
Today, Lord, I want to lift up Audrey’s cares to You. Lord, fill Audrey’s heart and mind with Your loving forgiveness and assurance. Give Audrey that strength & opportunity to feel like a Child of God. Provide that work environment where Your word can be spread through Audrey.
In Your Name we pray, Amen.
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stacbug
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Posted:03/19/2008 3:51 PM |
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Audrey~ I hope after reading some of these replies you feel better, they are all good. Just think of it this way...if you know you are forgiven by God...you are refusing His forgiveness in a way by not forgiving yourself and living like you are NEW in Chirst...it is an insult to God that you aren't fully taking His forgiveness and LIVING in today! You are living in the past and who wants to talk, work and walk with a bunch of old skeletons and dead people???? DOn't live in that death that was you before Christ...only YOU are letting you live there...you are in fact, giving the devil power over your spirit by giving in to the temptation of believing you aren't really forgiven, saved or worth anything...the enemy would LOVE for you to stay there and continue to live that way- please give GOD the glory- NOT the devil in this situation!!! You are glorifying the way of the enemy by letting him rule your thoughts, heart and vision of yourself and future...Honor God with your thoughts and remember what He has done for people that have done much worse, just as much or not as much as you feel you have---they are all equal and just sins to Him- and He covers them ALL!!!!!!!!!!!
Quit letting the devil have power over your thoughts- take them captive and live to Love God and Love people- that includes Loving yourself! Living like you aren't worth anything has NOTHING to do with living the way God intends us to live- HE thinks we are worth EVERYTHING- so much He died to prove it- don't disrespect that fact by living the way the enemy tempts you to...pray that stronghold is cut off, severed and broken forever- you are free from it!
Do you need to ask forgivness from someone else that you hurt while doing this "bad" thing? Then do it via phone call, in person or email or just to the air if you can't ever see that person again- write them a letter then stick it in your Bible or burn it and know it's finished!
Forgive yourself and Honor God the Forgiver or ALL sinner for ALL sins!
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Posted:03/28/2008 12:01 AM |
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Keep seeking the Lord. You don't realize how strong you are, your more than 1/2 way there. Use your wisdom, know when the enemy is trying to keep you back. The awesome thing is that you turn to the Lord, you want all the very best He has for you. Our God is a God of second chances, can you imagine how lonely Heaven would be if He didn't. Find the scripture that says "Capture your thoughts" take them and given them to the Lord. Is what your thinking true, what are God's promises to His children. These are your weapons, get a few, speak them out loud. You have to release the words in order for your sword to work. The word, cuts through. When the enemey is trying to keep you from the very best the Lord has already given to you. Tell him if he has an issue to take it up with your Father, you are forgiven, you are His beloved, you are wonderfully made in His image. God did not give you a spirit of fear but has made you fearless. Greater is He in you than he that is in the world.
Lord I pray for Audrey that You put a hand of protection on her. That she capture every thought, that she not be condemmed by the enemy. That you speak to her through your word, that Your peace that passes all understanding fall upon her. Help her to know when then enemy is trying to steal all the promises you have for her. Surround her with divine friends and remove all outside distractions that keep her from hearing clearly from her. Help us to always ask for forgiveness of our sins and anything that offends you as to not give the enemy a legal opening to torment us. Father we pray that your will be done in her life and that she look to you for guidance always. AMEN
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