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jcasti13
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Posted:11/16/2007 10:06 PM |
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I have a beautiful 2 and 1/2 year old baby girl and another one on the way. I had a miscarriage last october, and 4 months after that my life took a turn for the worse. I was diagnosed by my phy with ppocd (post partum ocd) w/ ppd (post partum depression). My battle has been long and at times very dark. The thoughts that would pass through my mind were awful, and I could not believe a mother would ever think like that. So I started to focus the awful thoughts on myself, and became really hard on myself, to the point were ending my life kept crossing my mind. I did not understand what was going on, and I knew this person that was in my head was not me. I just wanted things to back to normal. I've been on a low dose of Zoloft to calm things down, and It has helped. I also have a wonderful friend who introduced me to BRCC and the bible. I totally love my Lord Jesus, Ilove myself, and I love my family, but I can't seem to shake all the negative thoughts away. I want so badly to let go of all the negativity but as soon as I see something that reminds me of the dark days, I usually feel down again and have to battle the negativity again. I want to enjoy my life, my daughter, my family and my pregnancy. Can some one please give me some type of advise? I know that this feeling will go away, I just want to make the process a bit smoother. Has anyone experienced ppd? or ppocd? Thanks for taking the time to read my link
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angel15j
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Posted:11/23/2007 8:12 PM |
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I went through a version of PPD, mine wasn't because I had a child, but because I became a step-mom to one...it turned my world upside down for quite a while. I questioned everything, to include God, my husband, and my decision to get into this family to begin with.
I recognize the value of meditation and then medication, good for you for doing everything you can to get through this!!! The only thing that kept me smoothing things out was to watch for the toilet bowl to flush. I had to write down the things that I do when I start to get depressed and/or irritable and watch for them. (My husband and kiddo do the same thing with me now.) When that toilet bowl starts to flush and my life swirls out of my control a way to divert out of the whirl pool even if only for a little while.
Exercise REALLY helped me a lot, even just calling up a friend and going for a walk. I also developed a few good female friends who are moms and put them on speed dial, talked to them about what I was going through and asked them to be my "Emergency comforters". I called those blessed ladies at all hours just to hear someone say the same things over and over, "you're going to make it through this" "God will get you through this."
I understand the concept of PPOCD, but I can't say I know how you're feeling about this. I pray that God blesses your mind and the people surrounding you in this situation and that you are constantly finding peace in the most perfect of times. Hang in there.
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Posted:11/24/2007 6:26 AM |
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I can't say that I have experienced PPD. My children are 26 and 28 yrs old. Maybe we just didn't know what it was back then. I can say I have experience with depression as both of those children battle with it from time to time. Medication can work wonders but it needs to be accompanied by lots of prayer and an open spirit to receive all that the Holy Spirit sends your way. I pray for peace for you and that you be released from all these thoughts of anger and especially from any thoughts of harm to yourself. You have a family that needs you and loves you. Please feel free to speak with the Pastoral Care Team members that are at the services. They are down front after all services and would be happy to talk/pray with you. God bless and I pray for a beautiful and healthy new baby for you
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jcasti13
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Posted:11/26/2007 10:08 AM |
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Thank you very much for your relpy!! It really helps to know that I'm not alone. Thank you for your prayers... doing better and better every day!
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